update: june 1, 2015

WOW it's been forever since i've blogged... I know... :< I'm so sorry a shit of stuff happened in the last few months. For starters I moved out of my dad's finally but now i'm stuck living with my boyfriend's family. Things just got really bad with my dad that I had to leave. It got to a point where Aaron and me were done with my dad. I don't want to go on too much detail but he's a very abusive person. Things have been very hard for me these past few months.. mostly being away from my cat. It sounds stupid but I love my cat and treat him like my child. I can't talk about missing my cat to anyone either because people just think it's silly about missing a "damn cat". That makes me even more sad :l A girl can't even miss her cat or even cry about a cat. Caring about my pet that much can be a bad thing around people that don't think about animals like me. I'm not going to throw "shade" but.... I also made a big decision about what I really want to do in my life. I thought a lot about who I am as a person and obviously I care and love for animals a lot so I decided to change my major to work with animals. It's still not official with my school yet because I have not done it lol but shhhhhh! I am bad. 
As you can tell from what I said earlier about missing my baby boy named salem (my cat) and caring about animals I decided the first step towards being around animals once in a while. I am starting to volunteer at a cat shelter. Aaron's sister gave me the idea of trying to make an effort to take at least baby steps since I want something to do with animals. Today I went to my orientation and it was really nice and fun for me to be around kitten and cute cats. Thankfully my thinking about animals is wearing off on aaron... slowly but surely. I'm saying this because aaron and I tried to become vegan. Spoiler alert we failed because we just went head on to it. I talked about wanting to become vegan all the time to aaron but he was very worried about me not knowing what to eat,etc. I respect everyone that is vegan; it takes a lot to be that dedicated. I think being a vegetarian is the best first step so i'm am trying again :B Yes I love animals but right now changing my diet all around is so fricking hard. It's sounding hypocritical because I love them but i'm thinking about myself... shitty I know but my living situation is very tough at the moment. I will do it and have that lifestyle when I am stable I promising to myself! 
I am going to change my blog layout this week so be on the lookout for it :3 I'm having aaron help me as well. It's going to be more cleaner and not have as much going on like right now. I need to revamp this blog and start blogging and maybe vlogging ???? since I live with aaron now. If you guys want to see anything from me please comment or tell me on twitter. Tell me ideas so I can start posting again! 
I love you every single person that takes time to read these updates! Thank you for being so awesome and just reading. It means a lot to me because it feels good to get things out there. I am a very open person and don't hide much. 

Once again thank you and I hope you're having a lovely day or night.